I've been bad.

I have written about 4 posts without posting them, one was a tearful grief-filled post about Magnum, one was about my recent troubles with our 3 year old son Danny and how I feel like no matter what I do, I'm not being an effective parent for him, another was about Camille and how she has been wonderful even with all the stress and how I feel I've neglected her and the fourth was about how I needed a little retail therapy lately.

I am a mess- I admit it. I'm seriously just getting through each day and I know that there are others will harder struggles in the world right now but that's not really a comfort. The people being affected by the fires in California, the children being abused or even killed by their parents (these newscasts have saddened me further) and the rest of the negative news related items that pour out of the television.

I don't think I've ever had to deal with so many events in such a short period before, of course there have been big events that rippled through the rest of my daily life but I've never had so many little big things happen all at once.

1. Mother in law has lost her battle to cancer, everyone grieving
2. My best pal, my dog Magnum passed away the day of MIL's funeral
3. I have sprained my ankle which has left me physically handicapped for days
4. Homeschooling takes a lot of effort, time and energy
5. Dh needs surgery on this back for a pinched nerve, he's in pain
6. With the recent remodeling at the parsonage, we have items that need to be taken away but we don't have a truck
7. Our back door needs replaced, the doorknow fell off and Danny broke a pane (sheesh, right?) BUT I think we need to pay to replace the door so I haven't called the parsonage committee or done anything yet.
8. My parents have traveled to Ohio to take care of details concerning my paternal grandmother and whether she needs assisted living or brought to live with them- she has Alzheimer's
9. Danny has been more than a handful lately, acting out, testing and church has been very stressful, bedtime is very stressful and we need to re-evaluate our parenting methods and dh and I need to work together.
10. Plus the usual stresses that plague a regular family

Sometimes I wish the Lord didn't trust me with so much. Really. So I've been bad- I've shopped for Camille because the girl has outgrown all her pants and it's getting cooler, which also means she has outgrown almost ALL her clothes. Danny is so tall that his clothes fit at his waist but are short on his legs- so he's needed clothes. I have never had good, quality clothes or undergarments so I have splurged and bit the bullet. With our new laminate floors, we need rugs! At the doors that lead outside and in high traffic areas. I have to sweep everyday, even with Mr. Shedder himself (Magnum) gone and damp mop every other day to keep things clean. I see a Swiffer wet mop in our grocery list for next month.

I have cleared out our bathroom, where I once had 22 bottles of lotion, I only have 6 now. The same for makeup and hair products. I am decluttering as much as I can to lighten the load. But since I've been crippled with a sprained ankle, I'm not able to do as much to keep my mind/body busy.

Okay, do you understand why I haven't been blogging as much lately? Who wants to hear all this? Lol.