SAHM Ramblings

I took for granted all that I had in our last home, the small and large routines that were set, the ability to just move through the day without thinking so much. Lately, I've done more thinking than I feel I've done in a while!

Where should this go?
Will I find it when I need it?
Do we really need this?
Do I need to buy/make anything to make this task easier to accomplish?

Everything has changed and become more simplified, as we squeeze into our new home. I've been struggling with this and guilt-laden over all the items I've had to purge. The squeaky clean feeling that comes after removing the extra baggage hasn't been present as much as I'd like it to. I just keep finding room for improvement.

A stay-at-home mom's job is hard work. I say job because it is a job, a never-ending one. Up at 6:00 am and to bed at 10:00 pm, it is on-going through all the hours. There are times I'm able to be a bit more slack in my duties and watch a movie in the middle of the afternoon. These are the times I feel guilty for being at home, like I'm getting away with something. I was reminded lately that just because I take time to myself during the day, it does not negate the fact that I work at home. I have no real sick days where all responsibility disappears while I get better. I have no real vacation time where the responsibility of my job disappears for awhile. I cannot escape this job.

My job is always there, always ready to be done but is never finished. My pay is hugs and kisses, exclamations from my children about being the best mom in the world, appreciative looks and comments from my husband. No day is exactly the same yet they are all similar, sometimes running into each other and I'm unable to determine what day of the week it really is. When someone asks if I remember what happened on Tuesday, I have to think especially hard...was that the day when the bathroom flooded or was it the day it rained all day and I had to give Jack (our dog) a bath 3x?

I think the worst thing about this job is that others' do not have an immediate understanding of all that it entails. If I were to say, "I'm a trial lawyer," there would be a clear understanding that I work long hours, argue for a living and probably have money. "I'm a stay-at-home mom" or my favorite is "I'm a professional mom," just does not convey all that I do in the way other professions do. There is not a clear understanding of what that job is. People think that my time is my time. Ha! Others think that I play all day with my kids. Another Ha! Worst yet, some think my house is immaculate and I have continuous order and harmony in our home. Ha! Ha! Ha!

The kids are at home! Which means there is a mess happening all the time. All the time! Let me repeat that once more...ALL the TIME.

I'm my harshest critic. Really, I am. I know when I have a bad attitude. I know all that needs to be done. I know the consequences of not doing what I should be. I have a constant work performance evaluation going on inside my head, every day. I don't have to wait for quarterly or yearly evaluations, it is in my face every day. So are the rewards.

Her 8th Birthday.

The cake took me 3 hours to make. It's Hershey's Perfect Chocolate Cake and that part turned out great. It was the frosting that took me so long. I made three batches of frosting.

I tried to make a 3 layer cake but I accidently flipped one of the layers the wrong way and it eventually crumbled after I frosted it. It literally cracked and slid off. Lol. I removed that layer and put the last layer on. I sort of saved the cake, it still didn't look quite as neat as it could but it has two types of frostings. Plain chocolate on the outside and a mocha frosting inside, very yummy. I wish I had strawberry or raspberry sauce to put on it. Lol.

For the first time Camille had her Dad and all of us (dh, Danny and me) together for her birthday in the same place.
Danny is pictured stuffing his face with both hands full of cake while his fork lays on the plate.
Ah, the joy of having a boy.

Umm. I can't find...

Our Explode the Code Book 7. I know it's evading me, but where?

We went to the beach yesterday, a 30 mile drive away. I'm a little sunburned because I should have had dh spray sunblock on me but I didn't. It rained twice while we were there, after the second time we left.

I have no energy today, no zip, no motivation, nada.

Answering TOG questions

Tapestry of Grace is a definitely a major curiosity for those that do not use it, out of all the curriculum we've used, it is the one I get asked the most about. I think there's a great reason for it though. It's a packaged curriculum that provides SO much and in comparison to one year programs, it costs a lot more.

We use many of TOG's components but at our pace, from it I use history, church history, worldview, crafts, biographies, some science, literature selections for read alouds and eventually we'll use it for even more as we progress through the levels. If you'd like to see all that it entails, click here to visit the Exploring Tapestry website that has step by step directions on how to learn all about Tapestry. Click the Start Here button and take your time. Remember each Tapestry year plan contains K-12 instruction so it may seem very overwhelming at first, but each year plan can be used again and again at varying levels.

How we use TOG in our home will be different than how someone else may use it in their home. How I organize our lessons may be different than others. That's okay, in fact that is wonderful because it means we're each using TOG with our strengths and weaknesses. The thing is, I can't tell anyone how to use TOG in their home, all I can do is share what we do.

We received our Unit 1 of Year 3 yesterday and I can say that I wasn't overwhelmed at all. After using Year 2's Units 2-4, I simply opened Unit 1 of Year 3 and read the introduction to the unit and flipped through quickly to see the components we are already using in our other units. I closed it and put it on the shelf with the knowledge that in a few weeks, I'll plan it out for our lessons in September in more detail.

I'm grateful to have Tapestry in our homeschool, I'm much more calm about our studies that derive from Tapestry. I love the books, the plan and all the components.

Primary Language Lessons plan

We started PLL mid-year in 2nd grade, I think it was in January and we're at lesson 49 now. In order to have PLL 2 times a week in 3rd grade (which starts Sept. 15th), I need to get the amount of lessons to accomplish below 80.

Let me explain this a little more. There are 164 total lessons in PLL. We have already done 49, so there are 115 lessons left. If I were to leave PLL alone until Sept. then we'd have to do PLL 3x a week for 38 weeks to accomplish 115 lessons in the year. I want to do PLL 2x a week so we have to keep doing some lessons.

I have 30 lessons in math to accomplish so I'll use that as our time perimeter. That is 6 weeks of 5 lessons a week or 7.5 weeks of 4 lessons a week. If we do 30 lessons of PLL, that will bring the total number of lessons to complete (in 3rd) to 85.

Next, I looked at PLL to see where we could combine or skip lessons that weren't that important to get the maximum number of lessons in. This is for my own notes b/c I have this scribbled on a piece of paper I know I will lose!

49, 50, 51, 52 & 53, skip 54-55, 56, 57 & 58, 59 & 60, 61, 62, 63, 64, 65, 66 &67, 68 & 69, 70, 71 & 72, 73, 74, 75, 76, 77, skip 78 & 79, 80, 81, 82, 83 & 84, 85, 86, 87, 88, 89, 90

That is 30 lessons. If we accomplish up to lesson 90, then we'll have (164-90) = 74 lessons to accomplish in 3rd grade, at 2x a week, we will be done with PLL in 37 weeks. Of course I have not gone through the whole book to see where we could skip or combine, I only did that to figure out how much we could get done during the next 6-7 weeks.

That is the goal to be able to do PLL 2x a week, because the other two days will be devoted to finishing Explode the Code. Which I still need to figure out b/c when we finish Explode the Code, I want to move onto Simply Spelling which is a 5 day a week program. I'll cross that bridge later.

The Final Stretch

We need to finish our 2nd grade studies, even if things aren't 100% orderly in our new home. The weight of guilt is killing me. Lol. So...here's what we have to do. I'm putting it all in 1 binder (divided by subject), which I can pull from to put in Camille's daily folders.

Math: Horizons 2, lessons 132-160
Explode the Code Book 6 and 7: Book 6 lessons 10-15, Book 7 lessons 1-15
PLL: Lessons 49-90, skipping and combining a few

History: TOG Year 2, Unit 3 and 4, fast-tracked reading these books only:
-Iroquois Indians
- The New Americans
- Life in New France
- Paddle-to-the-Sea
- Life on a Southern Plantation
- The Farewell Symphony
- Ben and Me
- Benjamin Franklin by d'Aulaire
- Sea Clocks
- Gulliver's Travels (independent read)
- Hasty Pudding, Johnnycakes and other Good Stuff
- George Washington by d'Aulaire
- Liberty! How the Revolutionary War Began
- The Matchlock Gun
- The Boston Tea Party
-The 4th of July Story
- Paul Revere's Ride
- Carry On, Mr. Bowditch
- Aaron and the Green Mountain Boys
- A More Perfect Union
- Daniel Boone
- Hot Air, Balloon Ride
- The Flower Hunter
- Our Country's Presidents
- Paris 1789
- Dear Benjamin Banneker

I will follow TOG's scheduling of the books and I have projects waiting if we are able/want to do them. We had just finished The Courage of Sarah Noble before we took a break due to illness and the move. I am very grateful that this is just the first cycle and hope that as I gain more experience I'll be able learn how to keep our studies going even amidst life's situations. I've really felt very overwhelmed with this move, with dh not being able to help, moving into a smaller house, in the middle of our studies. I thought I understood al that I would have to do but when it actually came time to accomplish things, I had less energy and time than I thought I would.

We are moving forward with our invertebrate studies, although I haven't purchased the pocket microscope and slides I intended to or the rotting log kit and starfish for dissection. Right now I don't know WHERE I'd put the rotting log, lol.

For Camille's daily folders, I fill and empty them once a week with work to be done and work completed. The binder has tabs for each subject so if she gets behind in one subject it won't throw off everything else like it would if I mixed the subjects together in an attempt to create daily work in the binder.

Our learning room is pretty much put together, but I still have boxes to unpack and daunting questions about where everything should go or whether I really need the items to begin with. Sigh. It's smaller but the kids already love being in here playing at the table. It is my hope that the kids enjoy having this room and it's worth the trouble of them sharing a room. That sits on my heart a lot, especially since I have to purge the kids' clothes so that they all fit in their one closet. I also have to go through their toys and make some hard decisions. The truth of the matter is, the kids don't really play with toys.

Sure, Danny plays with his cars but other than that, I cannot think of one thing that is constantly played with. I've given both of the kids 3 wing-lid bins to fill with things they want to keep under their beds. Camille filled hers last week and hasn't touched the contents since.

It makes me wonder how indulgent I've been with the kids, what is appropriate and what is wasted money. For her upcoming birthday we got Camille her own watch, a poster of the world that contains animals, famous landmarks and various other information and an oscillating fan. She doesn't need clothes, shoes, and she doesn't want books, games, or any toys. She has asked for a fan and she NEEDS a watch. The kids are getting a new backyard playset courtesy of their grandpa but they don't know about that yet.

Anyways, I'm just rambling now. As soon as I get the rest of the boxes unpacked, there WILL be pictures. I have new bookcases that have been a real surprise, I can get more books on them than the ones we had before! Although our TOG books are in rubbermaid totes for storage, we have a lot of shelf space in our learning room that I have to figure the best way to utilize. I can't believe I'm saying that! All of our science books fit on 1 bookcase. One bookcase. Unbelievable! I told Camille that it will be my indication to purge science books, when they don't all fit on one bookcase. She says she gets her silliness from me. I believe her sometimes. ;)

Our July 4th

We spent July 4th at Fort McAllister State Park, exploring Civil War times and the remnants of Fort McAllister. Here is Camille eating watermelon, goofy girl.

This historical embattlement was visited by Robert E. Lee and was the site of numerous unsucessful attempts by the Union Navy to pass it's guns in an attempt to access the Ogeechee river in order to lay destruction to the railway upstream, the plantations that were feeding the Confederate armies, and the CSS Nashville which was trapped by the Union blockade around Savannah. It fell to the hands of Sherman's ground troops during his infamous march to the sea on his way to Savannah from Atlanta.

To see a virtual tour of the park, click here.





We arrived just in time to hear the cannon firing and see the musket firing demonstration. We learned about the components of the uniform and why the men wore wool instead of cotton. Wool in 90°+ heat, I was sweating in cotton! Poor men.

We explored Fort McAllister and went into a few bunkers, one contained a row of bunk beds for the soldiers with a small eating area, another contained artillery. Actually the one pictured contained the artillery.

This is a picture of the wheelbarrow race that was a part of the fun that day.

Ready to Jump In

God has been very good to me in the last few days, every prayer said for us has been much appreciated because we are feeling the blessings of them! I was spiraling down into self-pity and probably depression over all the changes that have occurred in the last few weeks but the encouragement and graciousness of my online community helped raise me above it and get moving again.

For the last couple of days I've been making sure to intermingle fun and work, Wednesday we scrubbed the house in the morning hours and played in the afternoon. Yesterday, I was not feeling so great in the morning so I rested then (watched P.S. I Love You) and got busy in the afternoon. Today, we've gone to Fort McAllister State Park and joined in a few 4th of July activities and came home to rest before joining a few family members for a BBQ tonight.

Tomorrow we have another community 4th of July celebration to attend and we'll see fireworks tomorrow night. All in all, this is going to be a great weekend for us.

Instead of watching tv the last few days, I've been reading Terri Blackstock's Restoration series (Last Light, Night Light, True Light) and I can't wait to read Dawn's Light, the 4th book in the series. In 3 days, I've read 3 books. Each book taking less than 24 hours.

Why can't I read classics in the same manner?? Anyways, reading these Christian fiction books have really lifted my spirits. I've been reading about a family that undergoes many trials as they fight to survive during an electronic blackout period on Earth. Absolutely no electronics work, they don't even have water running through their pipes because the water plants are run on electricity. A humbling reminder that life could be a LOT harder than it is, no matter what troubles are present now. I know a few friends who have gone through some very heart-wrenching troubles themselves recently and my heart has ached for them in many ways, which didn't lift my spirits like reading these books have.

Before we started homeschooling I had out-read Karen Kingsbury, I had read everything she had written and was waiting for her to publish more. Christian fiction allows you to ride along on someone else's spiritual journey, to witness their struggles, their decisions and the outcomes of those decisions. It is refreshing to me to do that, to read about another's journey, even if it's fictional - it takes the formality away and just leaves me feeling good.

Sometime next week, I should have our bookcases delivered and I can finish setting up our learning room. I'm ready. Really ready! I want to get our room set-up, get lessons going again and create our 1st quarter of 3rd grade notebook. I want to put into action the ideas that I've had for the last few months and even though we may have a tight schedule for 3rd/PreK, I want to start working towards a full day.

I am concerned I have not left enough free time for myself in our days. I'll have from 6:00-6:30 to myself, just enough to have a cup of coffee and read my Bible. Then at 6:30 am, I'll be waking the kids and getting my shower while they have time to get dressed and do a few morning chores before breakfast at 7:00 am.

Our lessons will start at 8:00 am and will continue until lunch, the only breaks will be short 5 minute ones so we don't lose momentum. At 11:15 am, the afternoon chores will be done while I fix lunch. I have 11:15-12:00 noted for chores and piano practice. After lunch there will be a 30 minute independent reading time, which is probably where I'll take a chance to read myself. From 2:00-4:00 is the kids' free play time, at 4:00 I want to walk Jack, our dog and get out of the house with the kids. I hope to be back by 5:00 pm to fix dinner unless the crockpot is working its magic already.

Dinner will be at 6:00, clean-up right afterwards and then baths. Hopefully I can give the kids 15-30 min. each of reading time before their 8:00 bedtime. It is jam-packed days I have planned. I put it on a time schedule to see how the day would actually flow. There are a lot of things I can take out or schedule differently if I need to but really if we follow the schedule, it will become routine and just a part of life.

The kids do not realize this but I've squeezed out their tv time and added a BUNCH of reading time throughout the day. There will be reading in Bible, History, a fun read aloud (children's literature), a composer biography, poetry, independent reading, science reading and then historical fiction bedtime reading every day.

Our day is infused with so much fun stuff, I hope it won't seem like "school" to them, just stuff to do with Mama. With Camille I hope to have craft time with her everyday and the first thing we'll probably do is get a needlepoint kit for each of us and work on our individual projects together. On Mondays, I hope to bake goodies for afternoon tea for the week with Camille. I have so much GOOD stuff that I want to do with the kids and I think that may be our saving grace. I'm not trying to fill our time with formal studies or rote memorization but with things we all want to do.

I'm excited again. The Lord has been so good to me these past few days, to lift my spirit and refocus it on Him instead of myself. To focus it back on my kids instead of setting up house. To breath instead of stress. Although the stress is still there and there is way more to do to get settled in, I'm not in a rush. It's all coming together nicely and somethings do take time.

So, in the next week I hope to:
-finish unpacking the learning room and get it all organized
-start Math, PLL, reading, history and science back up again to finish our 2nd grade year by September 1st.
-start putting the final details on our 1st quarter of 3rd/PreK that starts Sept. 15th

I also need to:
-figure out a new dinner menu for our family since we have more accessible (and better) produc